OK so I haven’t really gotten to serious on here but it’s seem to be time! We have been in this series at church (Cross Point) called Baggage. Which… Yes we all have. I have not always walked with Christ in my life as most of you know! I was saved back in March at which time I was also baptized. I use to not be a very nice person at all.I carried alot of Sin and no I wasn’t addicted to drugs,alcohol or what people like to think of why people aren’t in church but I was addicted to myself. I wasn’t horrible but I made lots of bad choices and was a very selfish person. The day I asked for Jesus to come into by life He took those horrible things and way of life away. Yes there are people that I have hurt and things I have done that I can’t take back. I know what my life looked like then and I have came forward and admitted many of my faults. I also have looked at past things and made peace in my heart for the overwhelming wrong that was done to me. I have let go of the things I can’t change about my childhood and my past! I apologized to many people for my mistakes. I strive everyday to be a better person and a better friend and Mother! I’m not exactly where I want to be in my spiritual life and I have stumbled but ultimately my heart is there and the want is there! So as we have gone in this series I have been forced to face horrible truths about myself and my life. But by all means big thanks to Pastor Pete for not being that friend that just say what we want to hear but to speak truth in our lives. If any of you have been in any of these services you have to understand what I mean. I walk out of church in total trance thinking and looking at myself and relationships. So among the many things I wrestle with and want to work on I’m finding a down side to my trouble. Please DO NOT take this the wrong way cause If anything Pastor Pete has dwelled into me that at the end of the day you have to own it. By all means I do! What do you do when you are striving to move forward and unpack baggage and you have people from what I call “my past life” Which was my life before Christ that don’t let it go? They don’t believe in you and your transformation? They are like that person in the airport and you lay your baggage down and forget it but here they coming running after you screaming ” Ma’am Ma’am you forgot this” Then what do you do? One thing that has been very hard for me in this is I feel like I’m in constant defense of my faith and who I have become. It troubles me to think that we say that our God saves and he transforms but people don’t believe it when it was done right under their nose! There is no comparison to who I was to who I am. I know that God knows who I am but as we are moving in this series it just raises question in my mind is there something I can do to help these people understand ( Even though I have expressed my heart felt story and feelings till I’m blue in the face) Or has this became their Baggage now that only they can choose to work through? Just so it’s clear these aren’t people that I want to just not have in my life. Trust me I wish it was that easy. These are family members very close friends that were caught in the cross fire of my past life and mistakes. It leaves me very lost, hurt and confused! If I could ask anything of anyone that may read this Please allow people that have wronged you the chance to say I’m sorry and when you see God’s work happen right before you. Praise God and Know his plan is good! Lift people up with encouragement and not constantly remind them of the past I can Promise you they know their wrongs and Sins and that is enough!
This is one of my favorite songs and It really reminds me of what is important when its said and done which is How you choose to live from here on out with Christ! Thank you for reading and have a Blessed Day